when will you decide to listen to my cry for help?

the truth about me

 my story is when i was 8 my dad cheated on my mom we got evicted he moved in with his gf my mom my sisters and one of my sisters bf moved into my aunts house we slept in a garage for 3 years my dad came and left 13 times then the day after my 4th grade year ended we got a u-haul and my sister called my dad so he could help us pack he wound up driving the u-haul cuz i was too hard for my mom and my sister. he wound up staying and we moved to georgia we booked a motel room for the week and wound up staying for 5 months. my sister left us to move with her husband in alaska. my aunt came down from new york and she helped us and we moved into where we live now.
my dad got fired and then he found another job and cheated again. that christmas i realized there was no santa i was 11. then i went to a school knowing no one teachers and principals didnt understand me i didnt understand them i hated it. middle school i hardly had friends i switched home rooms i started cutting in april of 2009.7th grade got harder and i fell in love with a close friend she wanted nothing to do with me. i switched schools for 8th grade had no friends for weeks stopped eating i was so depressed my grades sucked i was falling apart. i made some great friends though and 9th grade i went through so much went to a mental hospital because i almost committed suicide. i’ve lost the love of my life march 8th 2012 and ive been worse than ever since. i’m trying to find my way and i can’t do it alone. i fuck up i screw up i mess up always but i’m not willing to just fold. i’m fighting for my life back all i need is helpful ppl throughout these trying times